30/30 Challenge – 30/30!

30.

EXTERIOR: LAKE MICHIGAN, FADE TO BLACK, END OF PLAY

The last image passing through my brain
And transferring as a matte painting
Over my eyes
Before they fade to black,
Then,
Curtain,
Will be the electric dark blue of
Lake Michigan
Hugging the gentle vast sky
Cloudless
Extending forever
Except not
And I will remember the joy I found at her shores
And the sadness
And the joy again
The crispness of her icy gait
The balm of the warm breeze
Swirling, crashing, lapping
My constant companion
These eyes will close
Mouth frozen in a smile

Ⓒ Eileen Tull 2015

30/30 Challenge – 29/30

29.

DELICATE

It takes me back, the memory
When I should be moving forward
Or at least remembering that I stand
In the present
Try to balance
But I remember the smell of my first home
The one I made for myself
And sounds of the school outside the window
And the cracks in the plaster
And the mouse-chewed holes
And indelible memories made inside the rooms
And the screaming flower on the wall
And white tables
And red chairs
And mistakes and triumphs and turning 22
It was the most beautiful place

Ⓒ Eileen Tull 2015

30/30 Challenge – 24/30

24.

THE MARE

I’m getting ahead of myself
But I took my hair down
To flow free
Unhindered
Push my shoulders back
I have permission to fail
And that doesn’t mean I will
Surgically, my spine is reinforced
Which is why I make you look at me
I know why I was born
To run with the horses
Shake dust off my mane
As another gust comes
My name carried by the wind
But I can lift myself back into my own life
Thank you very much
But seriously
Thank you very much
And perhaps I have my face in the future
When my hooves are right here
I don’t brush my hair
I shake the dust out of it
And from that tumbles
Well
Whatever tumbles
Tumbles
I’m just the mouthpiece
With a fine, fine head of hair.

Ⓒ Eileen Tull 2015

30/30 Challenge – 23/30

23.

90 BUCKS FOR MY YOUTH

One day I’ll be rich
Or at least
Richer than this
And I’ll think on nights like tonight
When opening a check for
Ninety dollars
The joy sprung up
Relief
Ninety dollars
For my art no less
And really eighty
If you count the cupcakes
I clawed the walls of the elevator
And yelled “thank god,”
After working a thirteen hour day
Walking into my studio apartment
Needing a new bed
Or just a real bed, in fact
One day I’ll be rich
And I’ll think on lives like this
And I’ll remember how happy I was.

Ⓒ Eileen Tull 2015

30/30 Challenge – 22/30

22.

AN EXPERIMENT IN BRAVADO

The next time you see me,
I will be bolder.
Unrecognizably bolder
And broader
A big, wide mouth
Booming and braying
Dropping musical notes
A beat you can’t shake
To your bloodstream.
And the next time you see me,
I will be wanting
My hands out,
Eyes seeking, needing
Requiring that this canyon be reconciled
‘Tween you and me and I and all of you
Straighten up,
Because the next time you see me,
I will be bolder.

Ⓒ Eileen Tull 2015